So for years now I have wondered where I’m heading with my sexual desires and needs, so I’m going to try and write some of my thoughts and realities of life with Rachel my wife down to see what sense I can make of it. So let's start off to where Rachel and I are at right now. We are currently a cuckold couple as to my understanding of the term cuckold, Rachel has a regular boyfriend we see about once a month and also sees the odd other guy from time to time when ever her mood takes her. We came about doing this for a number of reasons, it was a joint decision at every step of the way, we would talk about it and table our ideas of what we would like to try and for what we would like to see happen with each other.
What was pushing us down this route was as I was getting older I started to loose my power of getting good erections which was having an effect me, myself confidence was draining away because of it. However I didn't want to stop Rachel from have fun with men just because I’m not able to give her what she wants, Rachel has a good sex drive and I’m learning that she is a very multi orgasmic wife nowadays more so then when we were younger. But I need to be involved in some way that fits the criteria I don't want to be left out I think that would hurt me. We have agreed that it will always be a 3way dynamic and I will always play a role one way or the other even if that means they will frustrate me. But then there is cuckolding and there is cuckolding so which is the one that would suit us the best. Rachel likes the loving tender side of sex with kissing and good communication, not a wham bam thank you man, she also wants one on one time with her Bull, I'm getting used to that idea after all I need to see it all as a replacement to me and what I can’t give her nowadays myself. We have been cuckolding now for a a number of years so we are getting some idea of what works and what don’t work. We found out early on that if I get over involved with what happens then I tend to take over which puts people off including Rachel, I’m a strong minded successful guy who found it hard to keep out of it at first but I’m getting better now. So we needed a set of rules that we both keep to which gives Rachel the freedom to have the men she wants at the same time as having to keep me somehow involved but under some sort of control. You could say we have formed a D/s form of cuckolding, which I think is what cuckolding is anyway.
Then strangely I found that when Rachel started to order me to do something I found it exciting. The one time Rachel her Bull and I went to chameleons swingers club They went into the couples only room where I the husband was told by Rachel I was not allowed to go in, I was made to watch them through the dark window. When they came out they told me to tell people who walked past that Rachel was my wife and she was getting fucked by her Bull, I would never of dreamt in a million years that would have excited me but it did. Its the fact that they are controlling me that excited me not so much of what they are telling me to do I think.
People talk about the humiliation side of cuckolding, Rachel is not really interested in humiliating me and her boyfriend is too nice a guy to want to risk any sort of fallout. but as time goes on one thing is starting to become clear, these elements have a purpose and need to be tried, its a form of control and helps turn it into a game or role-play, I feel I need to be pushed and to be made to try new things I like a challenge. So thats where we are now, trying new things.
