This was an email I sent to an ex of mine after I had received some photos (this was pre- digital cameras) that I had sent off for some 'discreet' printing. She lived in Holland. I'd welcome any feedback. I couldn't stop myself Alice, especially after the photos arrived. That pic of you lying next to me on the bed is just so beautiful - gets me excited everytime I see it. I think its the fact that you let me take your picture, nude, which I find so exciting. I don't really want to make a big thing of it, but its a huge turn on (for you too?), plus it demonstrates to me that you trust me, which is very nice to know. I guess I'm in one of my 'self explanatory' moods, where I write all this stuff down to really try and explain to myself, as well as you my feelings about various things. Plus I think its a way of me justifying why I find some things such a turn on, mentally as well as physically. The photographing of you naked for example, is a huge mental turn on, it shows you are at ease with yourself, with me, and that is so reassuring to me. When we were talking about how great it would be for us to be videoed making love, also got me mentally excited. Thats one of the things I love about you - your open to discuss anything, and whilst I know that this may just be a fantasy that we both share, I'm sure we can resurrect it as a fantasy at a later date to turn us both on. Its like when we were talking in the Irish Pub, about how it would be if we had sex on the table, or in alley on the way home - so exciting, so sexy to hear you talk like that, and I hope I was inspired in my responses to you. Maybe its because I've maybe felt a bit reticent to discuss fantasies during past relationships or not had anybody who will 'give as good as they get' as you do. I've promised this for a while, but here it is - another 'fantasy' that I often use when I'm 'thinking' about you. We are together, on a warm sunny day, walking in a large park, a few people are out sunbathing, and we are looking for a place to sit and soak up the sun. You suggest a few places to sit, but I turn them down, because I want us to be in a secluded spot, away from prying eyes. Finally I see a spot close to some trees with a raised bank of grass to one side, so that anyone seeing us would have to be very close. You look fantastic in a short skirt, your long legs looking perfect, with an ankle bracelet and sandals. You wear a cropped t-shirt, one which exposes your stomach. I'm excited just to be with you, to hold your hand as we walk, to feel your skin against mine and to hear your voice, your laugh, and most of all to see your face, your smile. I'm wearing a pair of shorts, a vest top, and sports sandals, but I am still very warm. We sit down, lay out a blanket and lie next to each other, soaking up the sun, stroking each others arms lightly, softly, the touch making me have goosebumps up my back despite the heat. Its so hot I take off my vest top, and lay on my back, head turned towards you. You are also lying on your back, the shape of your body clearly defined. The long legs, the smooth lines from your thighs up to your hips, your stomach flat and smooth, your breathing raising your breasts up and down, their shape accentuated by the t-shirt clinging to them. I feel myself getting aroused, watching you breathing, your body next to mine - I could touch it so easily with my fingers, exploring it as I have done before, my fingertips sensing the changes in your body as they move over you, into you. But I wait, watching you for a few more minutes, torturing myself a bit longer, until I can wait no more. I move my hand so that it is almost touching your thigh; I can feel the very fine, almost invisible hairs, against my finger tips. You move slightly, so I know you feel my fingers, and I slowly glide my fingertips along your thigh, down to your knee and up to the bottom edge of your skirt, pushing against the skirt slightly. I repeat the movement, down to your knee, and back up again, pushing the skirt a millimetre or two each time. You respond by parting your legs slightly and moving your right leg closer to me. This allows me to lightly stroke your inner thigh, down to your knee and up again, this time lifting the bottom of the skirt a bit more. You have not made a sound, except your breathing has been getting a bit faster, and this turns me on as I know that you are enjoying this. Both of us have our eyes closed against the sun, but now I open my eyes to watch my fingers skim over your skin, and I see that your skirt has been pushed up a few cm, allowing me to see your blue knickers. I move my fingers so that they are tracing the outline of your knickers against your skin, lifting the skirt up further in the process, exposing your knickers to me, the way they hug you so tight, with a few pubic hairs escaping from the side, the contours of your cunt easily seen against the material. The urge to fuck you, to taste you is so strong, I can hardly hold myself back, but somehow I have the strength to resist, and I continue to stroke my fingers over you, between the top of your knickers and the top of the skirt, your smooth skin 'jumping' at my touch, your legs now moving as my right hand moves over you. I move my fingers lightly over the fabric of your knickers, feeling the mat of pubic hair underneath as I slide lower, where it is warmer, tracing the outline of your cunt lips with my fingers, feeling some dampness in the material. You sigh as my fingers trace the outline, placing some more pressure as I press the material against you, into you. Your body has become more animated, moving against me fingers, your hands stroking your stomach, sliding under your t-shirt to your breasts. My fingers are now rough against you, pushing the material into you, feeling how wet you are. I adjust my position so that I am kneeling next to you, looking down at you as my right hand continues to tease your cunt through your knickers, the left hand stroking your stomach, moving slowly but surely up to your breasts, lifting up the shirt as it goes, exposing the bottom of your lacey black bra. You move your right hand so it is stroking my thigh, sliding up under my shorts, tantalisingly close to my cock, but not quite far enough. I am very hard. I can feel it pulsing in my shorts in time with my heartbeat, which is faster, as is my breathing. I see you open your eyes, and you give me a sexy smile and call me a bastard. I laugh and rub my thumb hard against your clit, the urgency in my movement hopefully indicating that I want us to fuck, right here, right now, in the open air, in the park. I lift the t-shirt above your breasts, my eyes taking in the sight of your left hand cupping your breast, nipple hard against the material. I lean over and suck gently on your left nipple, through the material, feeling how hard your nipple is in my mouth, against my tongue. I feel you moving under me as you begin to slip your knickers off, and I reluctantly move my mouth away from your breast to look at you. I realise that we haven't kissed yet - and I move my face to yours, eagerly seeking out your mouth with mine, your lips against mine, your tongue deep in my mouth, fighting my tongue as we kiss long and hard. You tell me to fuck you, and your hands feel my cock through my shorts, pulling them down and my cock springs out into the open. As much as I am dying to be inside you, I move my cock closer to you and you lick it, soft then hard, down to my balls, and up again, teasing me, making me want you even more. You run your tongue up to the tip, then down, not taking me into your mouth, teasing me. My hands are on your breasts, pinching your nipples, squeezing them as you tease me until, I moan as you take me into your mouth, your warm tongue and mouth almost making me come with the feelings that are passing from my cock into every part of my body. As much as I love your mouth, I want my cock inside your warm, very wet cunt. So reluctantly I pull myself away from you, and as I move myself so that I am straddling your body, I slide two fingers deep into your cunt - your very wet, warm tight cunt. I pull my fingers out, and lick them in front of you, your taste exciting me, making my cock twitch with passion. I position myself between your legs, savouring the sight of you lying back on your elbows, one breast exposed out of your bra, the nipple hard, and your legs open, ready for me, showing me how ready you are by the wetness glistening on your pubes, on your lips, inside you. I move my cock closer to you, desperate to plunge it into you, but also wanting to tease you, rubbing the tip over your lips, brushing your clit, the bottom of my cock sliding between your lips, over your pubes. You moan in frustration, tell me to get it inside you. So I do. I move closer, and with a push my cock parts your lips and slides into you, we both moan, the feeling always so intense with me that I worry I am going to come straight away. I pull myself almost all the way out, loving the sight of my cock emerging from you, then pushed back in again. You moan some more, and I know you like it, you want it, you want to be fucked. So I begin to fuck you, moving in and out faster, pushing myself into you harder each time, your legs wrapping around me, pulling me into you as far as I can go. By now any attempt at keeping the noise level low has been abandoned and I am grunting each time I push into you, you are moaning and sighing, encouraging me, telling me what I'm doing to you. The sweat is pouring off me on to your sweaty hot body, the sun shining down on us both as we fuck together. I want us to come together, to feel your cunt muscles contracting against my cock inside you. I tell you this and you beging to stroke your clit, a fingernail rubbing against my cock as I slide into you, the pad of your finger rubbing your clit, and I can see as you finger moves faster that you are close to coming soon. And you tell me, and this makes me fuck you faster, my cock flashing in and out of you, the image of your finger playing with yourself as my cock slides into you being indelibly burned into my head as your breathing gets faster, and you tell me you are going to come, to come hard, your hand covering your mouth as your orgasms begins, and my cock gets gripped tighter as your muscles clench and tighten against me, and my orgasm begins, my balls contracting as the feeling gets more intense, and as your cunt muscles relax for a second, I feel a stream of my come spurt inside you, my head feeling dizzy as the wave of pleasure engulfs my whole body, the secondary jerks of my cock inside you mirroring the spasms of your cunt muscles as your climax passes through you. I collapse against you, just about holding my weight on my shaking arms, my breath coming in short gasps, your breath also becoming more deep, both of us gulping for air, as we recover. I withdraw my cock from you, it glistening in the sun with your juices, covering it, your juices also shining on my pubes, and your pubes. We lie next to each other, recovering from our shared experience, the sun drying the sweat on our bodies.