I had to check with wild about her use of words. Strange that the one who was doing the helping, needed help. Well, as I've mentioned throughout this, communicating, getting clarity of thought and understanding between each other, is important. Being sure footed and not imposing, were really necessary traits. "Sir, this sub did mean what it wrote, Sir, " she said on the next chat time. " I bit My lip, as I asked, " Are you sure? " and waited. "Sir, this sub has never been so sure, Sir. Sir only when it thought it wanted children with its bf, did it feel more certain Sir." " your conviction is very positive, wild, and I feel honoured that you feel that you can put your trust in Me. " "Sir, there's something else too, Sir." You know that sinking feeling that you get when doubt suddenly hits? I got that feeling, wondering what the 'something else' was. "Something else, wild?" " Sir, this sub couldn't sleep for thinking, last night Sir. Sir, it wrote a list Sir. Sir, can it send it you, if it pleases You Sir? " The sinking was getting lower. "Do, wild, if you think you'd like Me to see your list." There's a saying, that if you think that something seems too good to be true, then it probably isn't. How wrong those words were, in this growing situation. The sinking feeling didn't need to have happened, after reading what she sent. " I want to be a good girl, I want to be punished when I’m not. To be owned completely, To wear a collar with pride, To communicate with my body on a level deeper than words. Complete submission. To serve. To be good. To be protected. To be appreciated. To worship. To obey. " Where had this come from? "your thoughts, wild?" " Sir, it laid itself bare Sir. Sir, this is really how Your property wants to feel, Sir. Sir, you wanted its desires, needs and fantasies Sir. Sir, is it ok, if it pleases You Sir. Sir?..... " My eyes scrolled down the list again. This wasn't fantasy. This was reality of a 23 year old daring, trusting in someone whom she'd started to get to know...and she confided this list, in Me. "Sir, is it wrong, Sir if it pleases You, Sir?" " wild, it's not wrong, if this is genuinely what has tumbled out of your mind. I'm slightly stunned, but pleased that you confided your list in Me. " "Sir...there's something else Sir." Was this a day of surprises, or a dream? Was I about to wake up and imagine what might have been? "And what was your 'something else ',good girl? " "Sir this sub wanted to have a physical feeling on being owned, Sir. Sir this sub has bought a collar and leash Sir. Sir, it'll be here tomorrow Sir." Even I felt My jaw drop slightly, as I scanned that last line again. "Sir, when it comes can Your property wear it and send an image, if it pleases You, Sir?" Pleases Me? It sounds far fetched. If I were allowed to show you the subsequent image/images that she posted the next morning, you too would see the reality that proper, conversations can eventually bring. "What about your bf? Will he be there?" " Sir, would You allow Your good girl to say its thoughts, Sir, if it pleases You Sir? " "What are you going together say, wild?" Sir, the knob head of a bf, can go shove his head in a rude place and play on his xbox Sir. Sir he's an idiot, immature, ego tripper, who doesn't give a stuff Sir. Sir, he's still at his mum's, and he don't have a key and this sub keeps the door locked, Sir. " What will tomorrow bring?