How did I get myself in this mess !!

I am married with 3 kids , the pandemic and furlough put a lot of strain on my bank “nest egg” , I needed extra shifts on work , I was offered extra work in the warehouse stacking and stock , I went to see my boss for more work , he said there were plenty of lads looking for work , he said you scratch my back and I will scratch yours .

Then out of the blue he said if you want the shifts - you will have to suck my dick.

As much as I said no he said it was a one off offer , reluctantly I agreed , we went to the forklift bay and I was ordered on my knees and then told to unbutton his jeans and get his cock out and suck it , it smelt of piss and sweat , it grew in my mouth and I had flash backs to watching porn and seeing how the girls did hit ,

Moving my mouth up and down his shaft , I was thinking about the extra money , without any warning he filled my mouth, I spluttered and spat it out.

He gave me his works mobile number saying if you want more shifts to message him.

It became a regular thing I was getting good at it ,the better the technique the quicker he shot his load.

Then one day he messaged me saying the next time he wanted me to wear a pair of my wife’s panties and stockings , I chose a white pair and black stay up stockings , he got me to take my pants off and crawl to him on my hands and knees , he spanked my arse over my panties , I sucked him and this time I swallowed it all up , I feel like his slut , even with my shift booked he would page me and he would be ready for me to blow him and I would willingly do it .

He said he wants me to buy some butt plugs and get ready to take our meeting up a level ……..the sad thing is I’m getting to like it , am I crazy ?