I posted this a while ago under an anonymous account, and got some lovely comments, so I figured I'd repost my story from my own profile... A story on here recently inspired me to write a similar account. I'm early 40s now, but since my late teens I've had a thing for old(er) men and in particular their hard, old cocks. Oddly though, I scarcely consider myself bi, and I'm certainly not gay, as I've fucked silly numbers of girls in my time, and am absolutely not interested when I get chatted up by gay guys. Flattered of course, but it's not my thing. However I adore sucking cocks, as long as a) they're big and b) they're older. It was easier when I was younger of course - to an 18 year old on his first nervous visit to a Soho porn cinema a guy in his late 40s seems impossibly old, Now that I'm past 40 (though I'm fortunate enough to look mid-30s at most) the window gets narrower. Early 50s seems too close to my own age in a way - I want them to be 'older' so I can lose my inhibitions and let my inner slut come out. I like to feel inexperienced and in their hands, like they're manipulating me, even though in real life I'm anything like that. I'm very happily married to a gorgeous girl in her mid-30s, and we've swung a few times. She knows I like to suck cocks, and while it probably isn't her main fantasy she's happy to let me and has joined in two or three times. Once on a weekend break to Berlin we visited a porn cinema and ended up sucking several guys off together, which was bliss. I also love poppers, which I was first introduced to by an old man in a sleazy porn cinema some years back. I'd resisted them for years, always declining the offers I'd get to take a sniff, and then for some reason one night when I was wanking in the cinema seat, in a line of older men all jerking off, I found myself saying 'ok' and taking the bottle one of the guys was holding out for me. Two deep sniffs later and my world was suddenly twice as horny and slutty; within seconds I'd stood up, pushed my jeans and boxers down and was on my knees, eagerly licking and French kissing every cock in the row. Usually when my wife and I fuck we end up, if not roleplaying, then at least fantasising about past exploits and hoped for ones; she tends to cum first, leaving me to wank while she holds the magic little bottle under my nose and whispers filth about all the cocks I'm going to help her suck til I tense and spurt everywhere. It's bliss of course, but she doesn't quite realise the truth; that I'm seriously addicted to older cocks and am suffering lockdown withdrawals! It's been well over a year, and my head is swimming with fantasies about them. When I'm fucking her in the dark I'll open my mouth and imagine I'm sucking various rigid, grandad-aged veiny cocks while I'm thrusting into her - she's obviously very indulgent of me but I don't think she'd really want to know that! So that's my story really - I've never fancied a guy, could never date a guy and have struggled to even kiss a guy, only managing it once or two when I've been out of my mind with slutty lust. But my dream would be to find a horny older bi or gay guy not far from me, with similar friends, whom I could visit once or twice a week, perhaps in panties, and just suck and suck and suck...