Looking back on my sex life I often think back to times when I missed out on sexual experiences due to shyness and inhibitions despite being considered attractive and having opportunities to really get down and dirty . Not just with women but with guys. I often think back and wish I had gone a lot further when I had the chance. I would have loved to have been well fucked , spit roasted , sucked cocks and gangbanged. But the experiences with guys were mostly pretty tame . Ironically I nearly experienced all those things on my first adventure. I visited London in the 80s and went to a blokes house in the Barbican to buy some porn videos. I have always been bi curious but this was my first time. Tony ended up giving me a blow job and I was keen to see him the next day before I left. I only had an hour or so before I had to get my train. I wish I’d booked a later one!

When I arrived he greeted me naked , his chubby 5 inc cock erect and was wearing a ball ring. In his front room he introduced me to two other guys. Tony was a slightly chubby older guy around 50 while the other guys were about my age in their twenties.

Lee was a blonde skinny guy , he was naked and stood watching a porn video on the tv , he turned around spread his bum and said ‘do you want to fuck this’ the other guy was a good looking Italian looking guy , Carl. He was sitting with his had on a limp but very impressive looking dick , ‘or maybe you want me to fuck you ? ‘

I was a bit thrown and didn’t say anything and Tony sensed my nervousness and led me into his bedroom . He said I didn’t have to do anything I didn’t want to . He knew I was very inexperienced. At the same time he to take my top off and rub my crotch . We went back into the room and I noticed there were threes used condoms on the table , a black dildo and a vibrator. An a video camera was connected to the tv and I then realised the porn on the tv was actually them. Tony was screwing Lee who was bent over sucking Carl’s cock. Lee was standing wanking looking as he looked at himself on the screen. Tony said ‘we’ve had a busy afternoon.’

I was feeling really horny but also very nervous , AIDS was a real danger at that time and that’s probably the main reason I did not allow myself to really let myself go.

Tony pulled out my cock and knelt down and started to suck me off , Carl came over and Tony alternated between me and Carl , rubbing the cocks over his face . I looked at Carls cock and realised if I was going to suck cock and be fucked by anyone in that room , I would like it to be him. I ended up naked sitting on the sofa .

Tony fingering me and licking my balls and cock. Lee and Carl were on either side of me , I realised they were expecting me to suck them off , I tried to wank them off but they pushed their cocks towards my mouth , I shook my head and they seemed abit miffed but moved away . Carl put on a condom and then started to fuck Tony from behind . Here I was homemade porn on the TV , a live show in front of me and three guys who looked like they would be very happy to fuck me senseless.

Lee took over from Tony in sucking my cock, he slipped two then three fingers into me and really started to get me going . Tony was urging Carl to fuck him harder and I was wishing it was me. Lee said ‘this guy needs a good fucking’ I wish I had asked him to use the dildo on me but that didn’t happen, in the end I wanked over Tony’s chest as he was being fucked.

Time was getting on and I had to leave but if given the opportunity again I would have been happy for them to use me all afternoon.

Still recall that afternoon , still waiting for an opportunity to be well fucked !