So I have not had any sexual contact with anyone but my own hand for nearly 3 years and I’m pretty sure that I will never get to feel the torch of a woman ever again and I have no one else to blame except myself So I was married to the love of my life for 21 years and we had an amazing sex life and what I lacked in the cock department (4 inches) I definitely made up for it with my tongue and fingers skills and the fact that I have always liked to get kinky and I was really lucky to have met someone who was always up to try new things Even very early in our relationship we would take pictures of each other and dress up for role play and it’s very safe to say that we had pretty much done most things that you could think of We did 3som 4som with both sexes she had lesbian but have to be very clear I never did anything gay I was disgusted by that so when ever there’s was other men we would keep a bit of distance but the funny part is I always love to see her get used like a slut in front of me I loved it and I realised that I also started to enjoy seeing her fucked by a bigger cock than me and I even got to the point that I was more excited about that then I was actually fucking her myself That’s when I starting to get the dirty idea to see a black man fuck my wife and long story short as this is not about that . Yes I got what I wanted but she eventually left me for her black man So I have always found anything gay absolutely gross so I hear you ask how did I end up becoming a black loving sissy I’ll try and explain So I was drinking like an absolute fish as it was the only way to numb my pain I started to think about dirtier things and watching more and more porn to be able to cum this obviously would get worse and worse I was so drunk and getting whisky dick I had started to get into humiliation jerk of videos and sissy hypnosis then I came across a jerk of instruction with forced Bi and black cock worship and I would be very confused and disgusted after I came But of course I would always blame the booze and I would tell myself not to worry about it once I get over my divorce and I slowed down on the drinking I would go back to normal Well that was about a year and half ago and I have just carried on and eventually I was to far down the rabbit hole and I was never gonna be able to go back So now I have turned myself into a pathetic little sissy loser that is absolutely desperate for a black cock and that’s the only thing I can get myself off to and I am now dressing up in panties and stockings especially hot pink ones there my favourite I have a cage that I self lock I have a black dildo and a black vibrating dildo So this bit Of my life is embarrassingly true and I’m so addicted to being humiliated and forced to be a black man sissy loser This is how i know I will never get the pleasure of a woman and now I have a new way of life as a sissy black cock sucker If you enjoyed this true story then please leave me your comments and I might even tell you about my fantasy that I hope comes true one day now I’m a little sissy white boi