Angel and devil within. . .

12 Jul 2007

I am wondering if anyone else feels confused by this swinging lifestyle we lead?
We have been involved for the last couple of years on and off and I still don't feel it is what I want, I get apprehensive about going to meet people, find my stomach tied up in knots and it really upsets my other half when I am like this as he really enjoys the whole thing and wouldn't want to just step back into reality of just him and me . . .
When we eventually get to where we are going and meet some lovely people, have a few glassses of wine the angel within goes off for a few hours while we kiss, caress, play and have sex with other people! Yes I enjoy it while it is going on, he has pics to prove it lol - lots of times I can't remember the evening fully - as I am either drunk on the wine or the sheer situation I really don't know.
Would love to hear if anyone else feels the same.

12 Jul 2007

There have been times with mixed feeling. Not guilt, just mixed.
Then we are not the 'normal' swingers, we have more of an open relationship. We spend a lot of time apart. Many a time I unpack and find a note and a pack of condoms. So there I am away, wishing I was not so far away. Then the right lady walks in and no more mixed feeling.
Does this mean anything to you? I think you just have to be sure of why you are swinging.
Are you sure it is the angel who leaves. It sounds more like the devils pitch fork tormenting you with doubt.

12 Jul 2007

Quote by us2fortea
I am wondering if anyone else feels confused by this swinging lifestyle we lead?
We have been involved for the last couple of years on and off and I still don't feel it is what I want, I get apprehensive about going to meet people, find my stomach tied up in knots and it really upsets my other half when I am like this as he really enjoys the whole thing and wouldn't want to just step back into reality of just him and me . . .
When we eventually get to where we are going and meet some lovely people, have a few glassses of wine the angel within goes off for a few hours while we kiss, caress, play and have sex with other people! Yes I enjoy it while it is going on, he has pics to prove it lol - lots of times I can't remember the evening fully - as I am either drunk on the wine or the sheer situation I really don't know.
Would love to hear if anyone else feels the same.

In my opinion, sometimes people get too caught up in the whole swinging lifestyle and it sometimes takes over.
Id be very worried if my partner said he wouldnt like to go back to being just me and him because at the end of the day it is just me and him. No matter what we do or who we meet our relationship is based on the fact that we love each other we enjoy each others company and we have many things in common.
Although we do class oursleves as swingers (sort of) we dont let it take over our relationship. Id say that we were more part time swingers. What I mean by that is, sometimes we feel like swinging, sometimes we dont. Sometimes we enjoy the lifestyle and sometimes we dont.
As for the feelings that you get when you meet new people. I certainly feel the same most of the time. Stomach full of butterflies, worrying what they will think of you etc. The nerves do kick in, but you have to turn them around in a positive way and look at them as excitement instead.
Only you can decide if swinging is what you really want but it doesnt have to be a full time thing. You can take it at your pleasure/leisure if and when you want to.
Louise xx