My teens were the worst time of my life from !3-15 I thought the world owed me an apology. From 16-20? Well it was one crap time cant remember most of it i hated it i was hateful and hated.
My parents and brothers suffered tremendously for the damage i caused. Never have i been able to make reperation for this no matter how i tried and still try 20 years later.
I know it sounds too modest but i am now what i would call agood and fair person. However their are people who i affected during those 'bad sad' times who i will never be able to make believe who i realy am now.
This is certainly one to make u think:
The Bad:
Started smoking at 14 and still do albeit not very much now
Fell in love with a guy who ended up in prison nick and who was a very bad influence on me
Didnt do as well at school as was expected
Upset my parents by leaving home for a year when i was 18 (soon went back with my tail between my legs tho)
Was frequently pissed and ended up being assaulted because i was totally incapable of getting out of the situation
The good:
Loved going to college and did quite well
Worked for a couple of years as a voluntary worker in our local hospital and loved it
Had loads of mates
Omg i must have had better times than just that!! I cant believe it - going off for a think...
Suze xx
Oh gosh!!!!
Bad
- Losing my virginity much too young.
- Getting involved with too many wrong men.
- Discovering cider too young.
- Discovering much more dangerous substances too young.
- Realising that giving a man what he wants doesn't automatically mean he will stay with you.
- Getting pregnant.
- putting my parents through absolute hell.
Good
- Leaving school with 9 G.C.S.E's despite coming out of hospital the day before, after my baby was born still born.
- Realising that I had a lot of friends that would go to the ends of the earth for me.
- Despite the fact I had put them through hell, my parents still loved me.
- Going to college, and doing quite well.
- Realising that giving a man what he wants may not reult in him being yours forever, but I actually fancied women too.
ALthough I made a lot of mistakes, I dont regret any of them. I've learnt from them, and they've made me the person I am today, for better or for worse!!!
Good
1)Had fun legally
2)Did ok at school
3)Left school at 16 straight into a good job. Still doing it now.
4)Made some great friends who I still am in touch with now.
5)Bought my first flat
Bad
1)Lost my virginity
2)Got engaged
Good -
Dressed well and learned how to do make-up that suited me, unlike alternative teenage boys these days who think badly applied thick eyeliner on its own looks great and that it's easy to replicate Marilyn Manson's make-up teams' work with said blunt eyeliner and some white snazzaroo kids face-paint.
Had great taste in music.
Turned up to school occasionally.
Stayed away from illegal drugs completely, never seeing the allure.
( I can still look at photos from that era and think, 'I would still wear that now')
Bad
Started smoking.
Avoided most of school, meaning I had to go back to college later in life and get into debt in order to be able to get a decent job. I should have been more sensible.
Took too long to figure out own sexual identity, and went from gay to straight to gay to straight for years (coming out each time till people were just saying, 'Make your bloody mind up!') before I would admit to being bi.
Discovered sex too early and was too promiscuous once I discovered (and could get into) nightclubs.
Did not figure out how stay safe when being a skinny little freaky looking person in city centres on saturday nights until had taken a few beatings. Solution turned out to be simlple.
Thought my parents had no taste in music - who the hell were the Beatles and the Rolling Stones anyway? Should have just listened to it and realised they were cool people.
Left home too early, thinking a one bedroom flat above an empty shop with rotten floorboards and broken windows and no heating was paradise.
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