i wasnt going to write this, i still dont know if i will hit the submit key.
i havent been about for a bit, this is not a sympathy thread.
something happened that took me by huge shock, last week i had a complete breckdown.
ive experienced depression in the past but never anything like this, it started with anxiety, progressed into panic attacks that started to last 4 hours and resulted in just being able to not cope imaganing living like this any more,with the heightened anxiety 24/7, 4 weeks of no sleep and i broke.
i am now under the home treatment team, rather than be sectioned and on a regime of drugs.
some which have benefits some that make me feel so terrible i dont know if its worth it at times.
im still here, through the huge work from the team.
i just wanted to say if anyone starts to feel like i did please get some help sooner rather than later.
and look out for your friends.
and sorry to those i have recently let down or disapeared mid conversation.
xx fem xx
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Hey Fem
Welcome back
Sorry to hear you have been having a bad time :therethere:
Hope you are feeling better soon. Good to see your posts again
Welcome back
Sorry to hear you have been having a bad time :therethere:
Hope you are feeling better soon. Good to see your posts again
Orgasminator
Well done you for coming out and saying that, Be well..
Sex God
take it steady,,,n get well soon,,,,
Sex God
You have taken the biggest step and faced your problem (such a small word for such a big thing). Please be kind to yourself - you are a strong person facing a big challenge. It will take small steps, some will feel like they are backslides, but hang on and keep facing forward - you will make it!!!!!
Best description I can give of the road to recovery is climbing an unfamiliar hill. You climb for a while, seeing the peak ahead. You reach it, but it was a false peak with a slope the other side. It feels like you are heading back down to where you started. BUT you haven't. Each dip is still higher than the last dip, and when you are ready to climb again you are stronger each time. And each peak, of many on the way, is an achievement that cannot be taken away.
Best description I can give of the road to recovery is climbing an unfamiliar hill. You climb for a while, seeing the peak ahead. You reach it, but it was a false peak with a slope the other side. It feels like you are heading back down to where you started. BUT you haven't. Each dip is still higher than the last dip, and when you are ready to climb again you are stronger each time. And each peak, of many on the way, is an achievement that cannot be taken away.
Well done fem.
I have a good friend who has trouble with his mental health and I know (admittedly second hand) how difficult it can be.
One thing he told me was that once he started to have faith in his drugs, it got much easier. You probably know this better than all of us, but the drugs literally counteract the chemical imbalace in the brain that make you feel so shitty.
Anyway, I dont know you, but I hope you cope well with it.
I have a good friend who has trouble with his mental health and I know (admittedly second hand) how difficult it can be.
One thing he told me was that once he started to have faith in his drugs, it got much easier. You probably know this better than all of us, but the drugs literally counteract the chemical imbalace in the brain that make you feel so shitty.
Anyway, I dont know you, but I hope you cope well with it.
Sex God
I know it may take a while but hope you start to feel a bit better soon.
Take care and look after you xx
Take care and look after you xx
Kudos to you fem - for being so open in discussing this and for getting the support and help you need and deserve 
My closest friend is Bipolar and he has episodes where the panic attacks get so bad he's almost a wreck. The paranoia is incredible when it happens and when he's at his lowest, my heart breaks. Most people just pat you on the back and say there there but, as well meaning as they may be, it's nowhere near enough help.
To watch someone you love go through that IS heartbreaking but those emotions can't come anywhere near close to what you're going through
Do your best to fight it sweetie and be safe in the knowledge that there are people behind and beside you all the way :kiss:
My closest friend is Bipolar and he has episodes where the panic attacks get so bad he's almost a wreck. The paranoia is incredible when it happens and when he's at his lowest, my heart breaks. Most people just pat you on the back and say there there but, as well meaning as they may be, it's nowhere near enough help.
To watch someone you love go through that IS heartbreaking but those emotions can't come anywhere near close to what you're going through
Do your best to fight it sweetie and be safe in the knowledge that there are people behind and beside you all the way :kiss:
Big hugs over the ether from Ben and Minx.
If you need a listening ear ours is over there.>>>>>
Once you start to feel more like yourself you may find that talking therapies are invaluable in the long term.
Chin up be well and try really hard to remember that depression never lasts forever and sometimes only lasts a few days.
If you need a listening ear ours is over there.>>>>>
Once you start to feel more like yourself you may find that talking therapies are invaluable in the long term.
Chin up be well and try really hard to remember that depression never lasts forever and sometimes only lasts a few days.
Sex God
fem Dear Fem,
I'm glad you decided to post this, if for no other reason then at least you will now be aware that you far from alone. IMHO there are thousands of people living with this kind of illness who, for all kinds of reasons, never seek help and that leads to a miserable existance.
Also worth considering is that the drugs prescribed to control panic / anxiety are only really designed for short term use, even though your GP will no doubt be happy to supply you with SSRI anti depressants, ( once he has found one that helps), for years. There are of course other ways.
Have a look at your lifestyle, how much pressure are you under? Are you stressed? Just as importantly, are you drinking too much or taking recreational drugs? What is your diet like? Please remember the mind and body are very much connected.
Now I'm guessing that you have been started on a course of SSRIs, (Selective Seratonin Reuptake Inhibitors), and that it has taken a couple of weeks for them to kick in and for you to get past any side effects. I hope this is working well and that you are feeling better, but if you are only seeing your GP about this you might want to ask him for a referal. This will mean seeing mental health experts, please understand that mental health is the same as physical health, forget the social stigmas of the past. only mental health experts can get you the best treatment for panic anxiety, clinical or manic depression, etc. Your GP is helping but he will be asking you how you feel and reading the National Formular to find the correct medication, that is his job, what you need is psycotherapy. Don't ever stop taking your medication unless your GP tells you to, these things can be dangerus if messed about with. But you will not find a permanent solution to this in a bottle or strip of tablets.
I won't indulge in my an experiences here, this is about you my dear. If you ever want to chat with someone who has come out through the other side, then pm me.
The very best of luck to you.
BG.
I'm glad you decided to post this, if for no other reason then at least you will now be aware that you far from alone. IMHO there are thousands of people living with this kind of illness who, for all kinds of reasons, never seek help and that leads to a miserable existance.
Also worth considering is that the drugs prescribed to control panic / anxiety are only really designed for short term use, even though your GP will no doubt be happy to supply you with SSRI anti depressants, ( once he has found one that helps), for years. There are of course other ways.
Have a look at your lifestyle, how much pressure are you under? Are you stressed? Just as importantly, are you drinking too much or taking recreational drugs? What is your diet like? Please remember the mind and body are very much connected.
Now I'm guessing that you have been started on a course of SSRIs, (Selective Seratonin Reuptake Inhibitors), and that it has taken a couple of weeks for them to kick in and for you to get past any side effects. I hope this is working well and that you are feeling better, but if you are only seeing your GP about this you might want to ask him for a referal. This will mean seeing mental health experts, please understand that mental health is the same as physical health, forget the social stigmas of the past. only mental health experts can get you the best treatment for panic anxiety, clinical or manic depression, etc. Your GP is helping but he will be asking you how you feel and reading the National Formular to find the correct medication, that is his job, what you need is psycotherapy. Don't ever stop taking your medication unless your GP tells you to, these things can be dangerus if messed about with. But you will not find a permanent solution to this in a bottle or strip of tablets.
I won't indulge in my an experiences here, this is about you my dear. If you ever want to chat with someone who has come out through the other side, then pm me.
The very best of luck to you.
BG.
when i come in here i feel i have walked into a cafe, i read(listen) what people have said and if i feel i have a experience/opinion etc i will comment. sometimes its a light hearted thread and i will "chat" rather than debate.
i felt like i had walked into the cafe and wasnt being honest, like i was hiding in the corner, i felt i should at least explain i wasnt feeling well. and without bringing the place down just act as a gentle reminder to look out for your work mate, friend, lover, family etc its a very fine line between the stress that pushes us to do a good job and push us over the cliff.
i have never had an easy life, ive been living on my own since i was 15, raised my children on my own, put self through uni etc etc. so when these panic attacks started it wasnt rational and i believed they must be a real warning that something bad was going to happen, this black cloud grew and grew and i could no longer excape, i wasnt sleeping, it was there all the time, i was in a heightened anxious state 24/7 and at times it grew so big i was being sick etc.
i broke , im on several meds now, under the cirsis intervention mental health team and getting through each day, learning to cope with the side effects of all the meds, and trying to believe that it will get better and this black cloud will ease.
god this is the most ive said for ages, i was only going to post a thank you for everyones support.
please dont treat me any differently, if you hated me yesterday you dont have to liek me today lol
please take every bit of happiness you can and if you feel crap ask for help and ask again if people dont listen.
xxxxxx fem xxxxx
i felt like i had walked into the cafe and wasnt being honest, like i was hiding in the corner, i felt i should at least explain i wasnt feeling well. and without bringing the place down just act as a gentle reminder to look out for your work mate, friend, lover, family etc its a very fine line between the stress that pushes us to do a good job and push us over the cliff.
i have never had an easy life, ive been living on my own since i was 15, raised my children on my own, put self through uni etc etc. so when these panic attacks started it wasnt rational and i believed they must be a real warning that something bad was going to happen, this black cloud grew and grew and i could no longer excape, i wasnt sleeping, it was there all the time, i was in a heightened anxious state 24/7 and at times it grew so big i was being sick etc.
i broke , im on several meds now, under the cirsis intervention mental health team and getting through each day, learning to cope with the side effects of all the meds, and trying to believe that it will get better and this black cloud will ease.
god this is the most ive said for ages, i was only going to post a thank you for everyones support.
please dont treat me any differently, if you hated me yesterday you dont have to liek me today lol
please take every bit of happiness you can and if you feel crap ask for help and ask again if people dont listen.
xxxxxx fem xxxxx
Sex God
I have similar episodes with regards the depression...
Just this morning in fact I woke.....Surveyed my lot.....And decided it was all a crock of shit...
The phone has rung 3 times this morning already.....Most likely creditors harrasing me on how they are going to get their slice of flesh but I cant be arsed to get off my ass and answer the damn thing....
Its quite likely that my house will either have to be sold and hopefully fetch enough to cover debts or it will be repossesed and my car may well have to be returned as well.....
Nothing seems worth doing any more....
I have a vauge idea of some of what your going through :therethere:
Just this morning in fact I woke.....Surveyed my lot.....And decided it was all a crock of shit...
The phone has rung 3 times this morning already.....Most likely creditors harrasing me on how they are going to get their slice of flesh but I cant be arsed to get off my ass and answer the damn thing....
Its quite likely that my house will either have to be sold and hopefully fetch enough to cover debts or it will be repossesed and my car may well have to be returned as well.....
Nothing seems worth doing any more....
I have a vauge idea of some of what your going through :therethere:
Sex God
Quote by Steve
I have similar episodes with regards the depression...
Just this morning in fact I woke.....Surveyed my lot.....And decided it was all a crock of shit...
The phone has rung 3 times this morning already.....Most likely creditors harrasing me on how they are going to get their slice of flesh but I cant be arsed to get off my ass and answer the damn thing....
Its quite likely that my house will either have to be sold and hopefully fetch enough to cover debts or it will be repossesed and my car may well have to be returned as well.....
Nothing seems worth doing any more....
I have a vauge idea of some of what your going through :therethere:
steve... I have been thru where you are now....It came to the point where i was 2 days from being made homeless and being out on the streets and someone saved me.....
see the CAB as soon as you can, they helped me no end.. helped me thru my financial situation, and 6 years later I have come out of the other side a much stronger person, it was a lot of pain, but I got there
if you need to talk to someone ... you know where my pm is mate....
sean
Orgasminator
Hows it going fem.......It does get better....Keep talking.......Baby steps.........
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Hows it going fem.......It does get better....Keep talking.......Baby steps.........
It sure does :thumbup:
I've been where you are now hun and it's not a pretty place. For me it was good old Prozac that helped me get to the other end a much better person. It DOES take time, it MAY take councelling ( which isn't for everyone )
True friends will be there beside you all the way until you can stand on your own two feet again and those same friends will always be 2 steps behind if you need someone to lean on. Good luck sweetie and always remember - it WILL get better
Honey good luck in your journey. U have started out on a trip that will take u to many revealing places. On here there has been loads of good advice.
In my kitchen i have a plaque which says
"I may be in the gutter but im looking up at the stars "
Several years ago i went through a similar thing through work stress. I saw a psycologist who talked me through it and taught me coping strategies. Today i am a strong person, an extreemly happy person. I re evaluated my life climbed down the career ladder a bit and decided my family and having fun was more importaint. I have never looked back.
There is light at the end of the tunnel and when u get there you will look back on this and realise just how happy you are.
Good luck. Enhance the moment. Love a lot and recieve a lot of love.
You can do it
hugs and kisses sweet heart.
Ali
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In my kitchen i have a plaque which says
"I may be in the gutter but im looking up at the stars "
Several years ago i went through a similar thing through work stress. I saw a psycologist who talked me through it and taught me coping strategies. Today i am a strong person, an extreemly happy person. I re evaluated my life climbed down the career ladder a bit and decided my family and having fun was more importaint. I have never looked back.
There is light at the end of the tunnel and when u get there you will look back on this and realise just how happy you are.
Good luck. Enhance the moment. Love a lot and recieve a lot of love.
You can do it
hugs and kisses sweet heart.
Ali
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Sex God
to paraphrase John Irving ....just keep walking past the open windows
Sex God
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to paraphrase John Irving ....just keep walking past the open windows
He said that? With me it would have been keep driving past those clifftops. I feel sorry for anybody going through all that.
Hotel Newhampshire if I remember correctly
