the most important day of my life so far

8 May 2005

Monday morning will be the most important day of my life so far. It will be my six monthly gender identity clinic appointment. Iâ€™m not looking here for hugs, attention, nor will I be flouncing, or getting angry, thatâ€™s not my thing, this is my path and mine alone. No one will ever understand what a Transsexual goes through in life unless you are Transsexual. To transition is the hardest thing in the world made even more difficult by the way society is constructed. Fifty percent of us end up dead by the age of thirty by our own hand due to social stigma and ignorance. I too went down that path only to survive, which made me stronger than most people.
When I came out, I came out with a bang!! I came out kicking and screaming and nothing was going to hold me back. I soon found out to my cost that it wouldnâ€™t be as easy as I planned. I did my research I self medicated for well over a year and battled with my doctor until I got where I needed to go. I did the entire shrink evaluations (all clear yep I am sane) which brought me to the door of the gender doctors the all wise the all knowing, the ones that have never suffered from gender dysphoria in their life.
What do they know? Not much. When meeting my gender doctor I was gob smacked to say the least. Here was a man, a mere mortal that thinks he knows my mind better than I do, and it will be his goal in life to decide my fate and tell me what is best for me. Which is laughable on after the first visit he gave me a list of support groups so outdated by a good ten years and was expecting me to wear fiftyâ€™s style pleated skirts, a blouse and a big broach? Please what am I dealing with here.
To prove ourselves we have to run a gauntlet called the real life test, which isnâ€™t easy by a long shot, fuck it was difficult to start with but I did it. Nothing held me back and nothing ever will. This girl has taken all the crap she will ever take. Iâ€™m here get use to it.
So in the morning the paratrooperâ€™s boots will be strapped up tight (metaphorically speaking) this girl means business Iâ€™ve done enough of my real life test and Iâ€™m being held back like you wouldnâ€™t believe. Its time for me to go in their and play my cards Iâ€™m sick of being held back like Iâ€™m on an elastic band itâ€™s not funny anymore.
Why am I writing this? Iâ€™m writing this because of the close friends Iâ€™ve met since joining this site one in particular that said I have such an amazing life ahead of me I can pluck stars from the sky and move mountains with my bear hands the world is my oyster and I can do anything, I have a full deck of cards, kings in my back pocket and all the aces up my sleeve. I can do what I choose to do once Iâ€™m complete, and I am complete now. I know my path and fuck its going to be mad!! Bring it on!
But tomorrow is going to be a battle I will either come out of there feeling like I did it, or I may be going to visit a lawyer and my M.P and fighting it out in the courts just so I can be Myself.
X RACHEL X
fingers crossed eh. i might get bigger tits after tomorrow lol wink

8 May 2005

The very best of British to you for tomorrow Rach!! wink

8 May 2005

There is a cult in India where men are abducted, have their genitals cut off by the abductors and introduced to the world of transexuals.
In most cases it has worked out very well, because those that were abducted found the life they were in was right for them.. There are some Western men who were taken into the cult and happily thrive as transexuals.
Would you have responded to this?

8 May 2005

All the best wishes in the world for tomorrow Rachel.
I'm sure you'll let us know how you get on wink

8 May 2005

Rache, great post and interesting insight into you as a person. kiss

Go kick that bastard's arse and don't take no for an answer girl! biggrin

Good luck honey!
silly

assionkiss:
Gem. x

8 May 2005

Go for what is right for you Rachel. Life is to short to let the powers that be stop us getting where we want to be. Good luck in getting where you want to be. X

8 May 2005

Quote by duncanlondon
There is a cult in India where men are abducted, have their genitals cut off by the abductors and introduced to the world of transexuals.
In most cases it has worked out very well, because those that were abducted found the life they were in was right for them.. There are some Western men who were taken into the cult and happily thrive as transexuals.
Would you have responded to this?

would you respond to a 3 inch Stiletto heel digging into your groin you stupid bugger :twisted:

8 May 2005

What an interesting post. I had no idea 50% of transgendered people dont make it past 30, hopefully this is only due to the dark past days when it was considered wrong to be gay, bi or different.
Well I personally value your difference, it probably makes you one of the most unique and interesting girls on here...Good luck with your appointment hun...
Ben...xx

8 May 2005

goodluck huni and fairplay!!!!
let us know how u get on
mwahhhhhhh
lou xxxx

8 May 2005

Why the nasty reply Rachel?

8 May 2005

All I can do is wish you the best of luck Rachel.............................so good luck!! biggrin

Steve

8 May 2005

I hope it goes well Rache. wink

8 May 2005

Quote by duncanlondon
Why the nasty reply Rachel?

Cos anyone would respond to someone doing what you said in your first post! lol

It might not be a good repsonse, but a response would be enevitable unless under general anesthetic! :lol:
I'm sure you'd hear the screams from here if they did it without knocking them out or at least numbing the area. Sounds a bit cruel to me anyway/
Wonder if there is the opposite happening where they kidnap random women and sew a cock onto them?

Hmmm ??? :confused2:

8 May 2005

Quote by duncanlondon
Why the nasty reply Rachel?

what you are talking about is Kidnap, Mutilation , and forced feminisation, and has nothing to do with gender dysphoria duncan

8 May 2005

Quote by steveg_nw
All I can do is wish you the best of luck Rachel.............................so good luck!!
Steve

next stop wigan indeed steve oi oi wigan its my birthday wednesday so get the drinks ready barmen wink

8 May 2005

good luck RACHE!!! you are the original hard core bad ass chick
take no prisioners tomorrow - I'll be drinking toasts of JD to you that night!!!!
XXXXXXXXXXXXXX
ms. ocky

8 May 2005

iIf you're pissed of and don't want to answer, forget about it. I just wondered if being taken into the cult would have been easier for you.

8 May 2005

Ouch Duncan, thats not the best thing to say!
Anyhow, hey up lass, goodluck... watch out for the morphine! (spelling?!) smile

8 May 2005

Quote by duncanlondon
iIf you're pissed of and don't want to answer, forget about it. I just wondered if being taken into the cult would have been easier for you.

:doh:

:roll: :roll:
You've totally missed Rache's point. I'm sorry but are you completely insensitive or what?
I think you should retract and apologise. :huh:

8 May 2005

although i don't know you personally, i wish you the best of luck!

8 May 2005

be thinkin of you rachel
hope it all go's well
x

8 May 2005

I know that some of you may see my idea as being insensitive etc. But with the 50% failure rate, something must be wrong in our Western approach.
The Indian cult has been functioning for hundreds of years. They are about 95% successful because they have the instinct and wisdom in choosing suitable new recruits.
Of course I don't condone adbuction and enforced mutilations, I'm a softy Westerner. But it may be something that Rachel could consider. It may be no more of a risk than doing it here in the West. She would wake up the next day surrounded by several people like her giving her the right kind of help, advice and support. And hundreds of years of experience, unlike our Western clinicians.
Rachel said she was okay about presenting herself tonight, so I asked my question. I am a fairly blunt and direct kind of guy.

8 May 2005

Never met you or posted to you before Rachel and I have no idea what you are going through. Having read one particular post on this thread however I just want to say best of luck and hope all goes OK for you.

9 May 2005

Best wishes good for you ! ( and good for me too , one less male to be in rival with and one more sexy girl ( to get rejected by probably !!!!!!!! ) biggrin

:D :D

9 May 2005

Rach,
Good luck babe.......... fingers and legs crossed for you !!!
Sam. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

9 May 2005

Mornin Rache!
So hoping they move forwards with things for ya!
I am being nursey nursey with the boobies when the time comes :twisted:
So tell em I can wait forever yeh?
Good luck darlin x
Cathy x
passionkiss

9 May 2005

Hi Rachel hope it all goes your way to day, love reading your posts, you seem like youv'e got it together chuck so go get them kiss

:love: xxx

9 May 2005

I hope your day goes as you hope for Rachel.
I have never met any transexual people before so I am completely ignorant of the trials and dilemmas that you face. Saying that, I admire your courage, determination and 'balls' to get what you want out of life and be the person you know deep inside that you should have been from the beginning.
Best of luck to you.
Chris xx

9 May 2005

You go, girlfriend.. you know we're all right here (cowering) behind you. :love:

9 May 2005

Yes another well wisher if you dont get what you want today I'm sure a lot here will write to your MP etc in support (Me Included).
I hope you get to fullfeel your destiny smile