redited and remixed 03 09 09 still wip, and just for the girls.

Girls can wear jeans, cut their hair short, or share some boots. It's ok to be a boy, but for a boy to look like a girl is degrading, but you think being a girl is degrading. But secretly, you would love to know what its like, would'nt you. What it feels for a girl. As spoken by Charlotte Gainsbourgh, look her up on you tube.

Both versions are different in the visuals, but I adore that voice, so softly sensual and alluringly beautiful and as rare as an eclipse of the sun. Akin to that first glance at someone and you just instantly pause and look in pure unashameded wonderment, you and I both know those thoughts. Though it is those words that sum up the total thoughts I have, and I continue to wonder which side of this triangle is the base, no not the base, but which point it is on.

The below links, are just a couple of you tube videos. A combination of a Paul Oakenfield remix of a Madonna song "what it feels like for a girl", combined with star trek voyager, to nerdy for you. I love it, I love the mix, and I love that voice that says the above, as it kind of describes the two thirds of my own triangle, or a coin upon its edge wonder if it is going to fall on heads or tails.

Firstly we have LadyArachnea version with the above words spoken at 0m 30s

Secondly we have aierdna version with the words spoken at 4m 16s

Call me what you wish, depending on which side your looking from. I'm 40, single, slim to medium build at 5'5" a tad portly around the midriff but who cares. Brown cold eyed or brown warm interested eyed, with dark ravenish shortish cropped hair, though silvering on the sides. I try to be polite and affable but not always, due to projecting a cold, aloof distant barrier, coupled with the fact I'm singluarly selfish, quiet and seemingly coyish. The cold front is just that, there is a warm front with high pressure behind it. Hate asking questions unless I need to, and prefer to listen what others say in both words written and spoken. If spoken in vocals or in a chatroom, interject with something if stimulated enough, even if I make an ass out of myself, I can laugh at myself with others, or at others if the ammo is there to do so. Though never to be insulting, just a humorous look, that is off the cuff, so take me with a pinch of salt and pepper just like my hair. I do not accomodate at this present time, as I like my own solitude, and company to relax in. Can travel given time, yet that is due to, unsociable hours of work, distance, and time free. That varies from weekend to weekend, and some monday and tuesdays, though if given time I'll use annual leave.

We all have a history in this, and I have to thank color climax for a certain flick I saw on a betamax tape the salesman surprise(remember them oh and if anyone has a vhs/digital copy let me know) some years ago that introduced me to this avenue of human gender and sexuality. Disgusted as I was at the first viewing of this, I was compelled to comback to it. One thing led to another, self experimenting, trails and tribulations to better understand, that finally led me to a local dressing service for the full makeover. Fully shaven!, and a little black dress etc, and with other dressers also. Sadly, expectant as I was, nothing came of it. Years later and the internet, and now this, not what I first imagined but I'm thankful for such an online medium that has allowed me to gain a better understanding than before.

Yes you did read it correctly above, I have dabbled in the tv'ism to better understand it, but is not who I am, but I am. It's always been there in my mind. Call it self repression, a denial at times, but it comes back to either haunt or please you, like that wonderous vivid waking dream you wake from. The one you want to go back to, to find out the end, and that waking vision stays with you in your awoken moments throughout, as an unseemingly unwanton pleasant distraction.

Am I straight, yes, straight acting yes, bi-curious yes, bi-sexual/possible gay no idea as yet, but all that would depend on the kind of woman I've always latently harboured away to meet. But when I think about it all, I have to cross my legs and more in wishful thinking, as both I could be, or would like to be with such.

Having been both an admirer and an occasional crossdresser aswell, I do like the appeal of the differing styles of attire in all this from both perspectives. Be it, classy, tarty, casual, sexy, provocactive, seductively alluring, even to a touch of pvc and leather not to much mind you. Though you dress for yourself not for me, but I'd dress for you, or be re dressed, and re addressed in a feminine form and name for such a likeminded girl. Though I do have a fondness for boots and find them slightly wonderously empowering, and a certain penchant for a school uniform look thats something else. As for the something else, I wonder if you would stumble upon it.

After all, I am a man who is not a man, a wonderous mind to be either a boy for a girl, or a girl for another girl or both for you. What I seek, I seek to learn from and with such, both mentally and physically, but there has to be that attraction between us both and that I can not side step in shape or form

As such I am not looking to know anything about the male aspect of you, your life or past history, just the woman or girl you are or like to be. Be it you like to, befriend or meet, an admirer or other CD/TV girl, or just someome like me.

Hopefully someone close to my location of Darlington, within a reasonable distantance of upto thirty miles, or more, temptation becoming . Yet willing to travel by train, then taxi, edinburg, carlise, doncaster, leeds or further. I do not seek an out an out one nighter, of close the door and into each other pants as soon as it closed for the first time. That maybe later if the attraction is there, as I seek an unhurried relaxed first meeting discuss this and what we both like about it, have a drink or two(many), and see which direction it leads us into.

So what kind of a girl or woman am I looking for, someone who is as mutual attracted to me as I am to you. Someone who understands that I have not succumbed to such a person before in the way I would like it to be. That I do not seek a quickie or a one night stand in this, nor have I slept around in my youth. Someone who understands that there is, that mutual trust, admiration, and sexual desire between both of us, that leads into not the sexual act, but to want to each other, in the way we want to explore and pleasure each others eroticisms. That makes each other think, and to contact each other to making another wantonly looking forward meeting. A secretly discreet liasion, that is part casual, part lovers, part girlfriend/boyfriend, obviously your the girl, and me a twin of myself either girl/boy friend, that is more than just a straight acting admirer, but a bi curiously bi male, who has had one brief encounter in the past but not from here.

If you see me in the chat rooms, and have read this either send a message outside of the chat rooms, or pm me, don't have much to hide now do I.

Have fun, and a laugh.

yours I'm D_E_V_I_L, a D_E_V_I_L, at times flirtously ummm seduced

Dave.

As for the sub dom I could be both, in either side of myself with you, I think?

The something else.

Is a crossover from the youthful machinations of my mind(as a minor), not of my age now, but from when I discovered the enthrallment of women, in my whistful fantasies, I wonder which age of the coin I am on. At my age I see things from both sides, those younger, and older, and I do like both. There is that temptation from both sides, in this, and in women in general, and I do like the attraction of both that adoration is but fleetingly looked.

The machination of my youthful mind is that of a woman, older than myself so twenty odd years ago. One that is dressed as I look up from toe to head, yes toe to head, a I may have already bowed to avert my gaze to hers. One that know these thoughts above, one that may have plans in her mind for me, plans I would succumb to. Those beening I'm sub as an admirer, that gains me to be more, to explore beening on top, and beyond.

As a girl..

As both...

As both with an older or younger, tmilf would halt me?