Hi mate
I know exactly the Situation you are in. I am very similar - married etc. I have never fancied guys but have always found the idea of having a cock extremely horny. I finally plucked up the courage about 3 yrs ago and had a mutual wank session at home with a guy i chstted to on here. Slowly things have progressed... sporadic encounters. I now adore licking and sucking cock, i swallow, and love being fucked. Theres a guy who is local meaning that i am fortunate to have infrequent but regular fucking sessions.
Good luck with your quest. Please feel free to contact me