Ok. This is not easy for me to type as I know that I will mess up how I word it and probably offend some people. That is not my intention and I have agonised over this.
As some of you have noticed ( thanks for the emails and texts ) I have been absent for a while. Yes, I had some personal issues happen but that wasn't the only reason why.
When I first joined this site I immediately fell in love with the openness of it and the people here. I was very flattered with the attention I got from some very wonderful people and I admit that I dove in with both feet. I met people, I went to munches, I went to socials ... I got to really enjoy the part of me I had been keeping hidden.
Then I started to feel pressure. Not from anyone here but from myself. I am not sure how to explain this. I basically got overwhelmed as a single female on here. I started to burn the proverbial candle in so many different mental directions and didn't know how to stop it without making a huge train wreck style mess out of things. So I did what any good American does ... I ran for the hills!! Was it the right way to handle it ... no, of course not.
What I am trying to say here is that I am not sure if new people realise how quickly they can get lost and if I hurt, offended or made anyone mad by my not knowing how to handle things I am so very very sorry.
I have had a long soul searching weekend and I have also gotten things back on track that were spiralling away so ... if you will have me back .... I am here to play. ( Lord I worded that wayyyy wrong ... lol )