a certain Mr Neilinleeds has asked me to make a statement on his behalf, being a kind of solicitor type person who pays my mortgage with statements on the behalf of! not a very good one admittedly, as Mr Agricola is still in jail, despite my best efforts before the magistrates.
guys . . . . i can't tell you how touched i am by the kind comments on the RIP thread, and in my inbox since! you know i'm a soft bugger, so you won't be surprised when i say some of you have reduced me to tears! i'll get round to replying eventually. there's rather a lot of 'em, which has really left me stunned!
but it's like this. one man does not a forum make. you do! mark and the mods give up masses of time to allow you to make the best site on the net. they desrve the utmost respect, as does the site, as do the people who make the site what it is!
in time i'll be a mere memory. it's up to you now to make SH what it always has been. a place where deep and serious stuff occasionally sinks in amid all the bollox. where lasting friendships can be made, without judgement. friendships that take you as you truly are, not as you try to project to the world IRL!
if i thought anyone would leave this place because of the atmosphere lately, that i myself have added to, then i would be more gutted that you can imagine! lessons are here to be learnt. i've learnt mine. it's unfair of me to continue now i've learnt them.
this site has helped me learn some valuable things about myself. i only wish others would learn what i have learnt too. it's with sadness that i leave, cos there is without doubt a particularly nasty undercurrent of late. i really can't be arsed going any further into that particular row, cos i've said as much as i can say already! except that the hypocrisy of those who claim the right to post WTF they like, yet deny that right to others in the most offensive, petty, bullying way, staggers me beyond belief! i'd get personal about now, but it ain't my style! ! i've said enough on it, but i hate it!
but that's not why i left! swinging ain't easy! not nearly so easy as you sometimes like to imagine! it involves feelings. i feel too much, so a swinger i am not. my feelings for those who've truly shown love for me remain unchanged. i just can't be here anymore!
and will yet another mod like to deactivate this account, cos i should never really have had it.
neil x x x ;)
as Mr Neilinleeds solicitor, i'm instructed to ask for thread lock and deactivation of this account too.
n x x x ;)
;-)